ohh..i'm so tired

As I said in my previous post, I took 7 subjects for this semester, Bel 311, Eco 261, Ctu 241, Bmd 101, Mgt 269, Qmt 216 and Handball for my curriculum activities. This semester makes me feel so sick and tired. Only 5 subject had final exam, when the remaining of two (mandarin and handball) I need to complete my final project with my group. I have to score an A’s for at least 5 than 7 subjects that I took for this semester. If not my father will nag, nag and nag to me along semester break.

Firstly, MGT 269 was teaching by En. Ahmad Kamil Mohamed. I think this is the difficult subject for me. Why??? It was because the assessment marks is 70% and only 30% for the final. We have to do a few presentations, attend an interview like we were actually looking for a job, and conduct a meeting, do a proposal and report. This entire thing I have to do in a group. Sometimes I feel happy to do that, but sometimes it makes me sick with my group. They just doing our assignment ‘cincai’ and sometimes I feel I do our assignment by my own. Then, I need to present our report by my own just because they don’t want to present it in front of class. Just imagine how I feel ---> angry, sad, upset, nervous and etc. Then, my friends said that I look like to crying in front of class. Actually, I’m not crying but I just feel nervous to present it alone. Until now, they never asked for my forgiveness. It makes me feel so angry and stressed.

QMT 216 is my favorite subject for this semester. I think this subject is simple and easy, because I already study this subject in my secondary school. I say it easy because I love calculating so much. I already said on my previous post right? I am very sad with my second quizzes. It is too bad. I just got 4 over 15. Just imagine how my feel after I got my quizzes. But after cried for a moment, I feel calm. So, I set in my mind to study hard after this. As the result, I got higher marks for third quizzes. I am so happy on that day. For this subject, I have to do a final project in a group. My final project also ‘hancuss’. Why?? Just let is as secret, I don’t want to say that. It just makes me angry and upset. I just can pray after that so that I will not fail for this paper.

Then, Eco 261. I don’t know how to say it. I still don’t get the results for my quizzes because it was done on the last day before study week. We only got the result for test 1, emm..quite good. I never expected to get the highest marks for this subject. I just read and memorize the entire thing because actually I don’t like this subject because I hate politics and economy, it makes me confused. But, whatever is I have to try my best to get A’s for this subject.

For BEL 311 I get Mr. Izuan Ismail as my lecturer. He loves to give us many works to do. Almost every week, there must be one essay that we need to publish in our blog. For me, it is quite difficult to do because I am not very fluently in English. But, I have tried my best to do that. I always hope that sir will give a comment on my blog, so I can improve my English and learn from my mistakes. For my term paper, I do that with Nizam. I don’t know him well and never talked to him before. But it’s better to do with him than my ‘friends’. (paham2 jelah Huda ea..) and Lyn, it is not a scandal okay!! He’s just my partner for my term paper. Please don’t misunderstanding.

CTU 241 was teaching by Ustaz Kamarulzaman Sulaiman. For this subject, we only had to do a presentation about a topic in our text book. Simple, but we cannot look at any piece of paper. So, we need to memorize what we should present plus author and title for a book that we use as references. If we look or touch any book when we were present it in front of class, he will deduct mark for us. For a quiz, we can bring it back and after we done we need to show him to get 5%. He said that it will be as our short notes. I think my entire class will get a full mark for our quiz.
BMD 101 or Mandarin. It was teach by Lim laoshi. He is very nice person and he always said “laoshi sengaja…”. For our assessment, we need to do 3 quizzes but I only done 2 quizzes. I’m not coming on second quizzes because I feel so lazy to get up and go to the class on that day. Only a few students comes on that day, so he said that ‘laoshi sengaja’ do the second quizzes on that day. Then, our final project is we have to record and act which use Mandarin as the language. It is not easy because we have problem with some of our members. They don’t want to cooperate with us and give so much excuse. But after we threat to dismiss them from our group, then they agree to continue our project.

Lastly, handball is my choice for curriculum activities. My coach is Miss Syikin, she is very sporting person. I choose handball because I think it will easy. But I’m wrong; it was more difficult than I think. We have to do our fitness test, writing test, attend an extracurricular lecture to take an important point for our writing test, and handle a handball game for a SUPRO. I really hope that I can get an A’s for this subject.

Here, I’m not going to say that I’m great in do all things but it is difficult to work in a team if our members do not give full commitment to do our work. I think as a group we need to cooperate with our members and not to being selfish like only we have a problem. Am I right?? We need to think of others too, everyone have their own problems. We cannot act like that. It will make our friends feel annoy to us. Although this semester makes me feel se stressed but my hope is I still can get the best result for this semester and my father will stop nagging to me.

"IRREPLACEABLE"

I am a singer? I don’t think so because I don’t have talent in singing. But if I have given an opportunity to become a singer, I choose the ballad as a concept because I love to hear something that makes me feel calm. I will put 10 songs in my album and this is list of my songs:

Thinking of you
· It was a story about the girl who fed up with the boy who always teases her. But one day, the boy doesn’t disturb that girl anymore. The girl do not happy with that situation and she feel something loss. She always thinking about the boy who teases her before. She doesn’t have any idea why she is like that, but at the end she realize that she fall in love with that boy.

Irreplaceable
· This lyric is created by me and I dedicate to someone special in my life. This song shows my appreciate to him because be my someone special in my life. I want to tell him that his place will not be irreplaceable by anyone even tough he is not in this world anymore. I will keep our love as a sweetest memory that I ever had.

The day we fell apart
· It was a story about a girl who wants her ex-boyfriend back to her. She knows that it will shames her but she realize that when the guy left her, she notice that he is much meaner than others. She admits that she’s doing bad mistake if she left him.

1,2,3,4!
· This song was about a girl who want more loving than she ever had. She very glad to found the boy who makes love around him getting easy like 1,2,3,4. She wants the guy piece her back together if she fall apart. She wants the guy telling him things that he never even tells his closest friends. She wants to be everything to that guy.

I’m just a girl
· It was stories about a girl who have been away from home for so long until she almost forget where she belongs. She didn’t mean to do something wrong, but she only want to got the best for her. She realizes that it’s so hard to live with regrets but she promise to be a better person.

See you again
· This song was about a girl who has found a guy that make she felt the deep connection when the guy looked in her eyes, who makes she couldn’t breathe when they are hang out and make she got crazy feeling inside. She feels something special to him and she can’t wait to see him again and again.

Nobody’s perfect
· This song tells that everybody will make a mistake in their life. She lives and learns from his previous experience. She will never repeat the mistakes again. It was because she knows that every problem can be solved and she will try to fix all the things up.


From the bottom of my broken heart
· It was a story about a girl with a broken heart. She said that all her joy will through her tears and her hopes through her fears. Even tough she will find somebody new, but she will never forget her first love. She hopes to give a chance for one more day and started again. She promises to keep the love till end.

Never ever
· It was a story about a girl who wants to tell her friend that if the boy doesn’t love her by now, it will never ever love her. Her friend doesn’t believe that and said that it was only tripping by his friend. She thinks that her friend feels jealousy to her but after she see by herself that boy having a date with someone else, she realize that they will never being together.

" MYSTERIOUS "

Ghost? I never seen weird things before and never had a personal experience about that. I just heard that things from my friend and relatives. There are many stories I heard about the paranormal things but the one story that I never forget is begin with….

This one happened to my friend, Wani when she was 15 years old. It was happened when she was in her college at SMK Benut. One day after her break school, she was sent by her parents to his dormitories. She headed right away to her room. Her room was in the second floor then. She was hurry because she just bought her favorite magazine, “Remaja”. As she lay in bed and reading the magazine, she heard a noise coming from the ceiling. The noise sounded like someone was tossing coins on the ceiling.

She went to the upstairs to find out what is really happened. Apparently the room was closed, she went back to her room and continues her reading but there it was again. It was so annoying. So, she went back to the same room and checked others room but there was nobody. It seemed that she was the only who went home early because she went downstairs and checked in the log book. The rooms were not yet logged-in.

Anyway, a year passed and she was now occupying a different room. But one day, she passed by a group of students who were hanging out sharing some freaky stories. One girl said that she often hears coins tossed on the ceiling but nobody was in the rooms on top of her. Wani asked the girl where she is staying and it was in the same room where I stayed before. Until now, she still does not know what is really happen on that room. She just forgets it because anyone never knows the truth mysteries about that noise.

I am so glad; I never had my own experience about that. I can’t imagine what will happen to me if I can see it on myself. Thank to God..

"LETS TALK ABOUT LOVE"

“Love is what makes you smile when you're tired.”

“Love is when someone hurts you. And you get so mad but you don't yell at him because you know it would hurt his feelings.”
“Love goes on even when you stop breathing and you pick up where you left off when you reach heaven.”

“Love is like war, easy to start, hard to end and impossible to forget.”
So what is love? Love can be of different varieties. It is one of the most difficult questions for the mankind. Centuries have passed by, relationships have bloomed and so has love. But no one can give the proper definition of love. Maybe someone think that love is friendship set on fire but for others maybe love is like luck. No matter how other people define it or feel it, but for me love is patient, kind and intense. Love can occur between two or more individuals. It enhances the relationship and comfort the soul.

The meaning of love will change with each different relationship and depends more on its concept of depth, versatility, and complexity. But at times the very existence of love is questioned. Some say it is false and meaningless. It says that it never exist, because there has been many instances of hatred and brutality in relationships. Love also includes compatibility. We need to understand each other and must always remember that no body is perfect. Be together, share your joy and sorrow, understand each other, provide space to each other, but always be there for each others need. And surely love will blossom to strengthen your relationship with your matter of affection.

Everyone have their own characteristics of their dream guy or girl. Same with me, I also have my own characteristics of my dream guy. First of all, he must be responsible and caring to me. He will take care of me if anything happen to me. So, if I have a problem, I can share with him. Then, the guy must have a stable job. It can make our life more easily in the future and he also will be able to fulfill my desire. Next, he should not be a hot-temper person. I don’t like the guy who always get mad because a silly thing. It makes me feel annoying with him.

But the most important is he will understand what I like and what I dislike. I really don’t like if he want to force me to do something that I don’t like. I very hate that. So, he must know my behavior before he want to be my dream guy.

..ROOMMATES..

Since my first day at UiTM Segamat, Johor, I already live at Zamrud College but for this semester I don’t get any room. They said I not fulfilled their condition to be there. I have no idea why I have to be in this situation. My dad very angry to me, he said I just playing around and not involve in any activities here but I already go if there is any occasion here with my friend. I’m very sad with my father so after make an earnest, I got the college.

I got room number Z138 at block C. It just two people in that room, me and my roommate, Amy. She’s actually is my friends when were in part one because were in the same wing so, I had familiar with her. At first, it was very nice environment because I can see a green tree there with the monkey yelling around and swing from one bunch to one bunch looking for food but at night it looks a little scary for me. I can’t see anything because it was too dark there but at last I just ignore it.

Now I would like to tell about my new roommate in this semester, Amy Munira. Amy from Negeri Sembilan was Part 3 student which taking Diploma in Information Multimedia (DIIM). She’s very nice and helpful person. She has a best friend which called Bella and Zimah. Bella was same wing with us, when Zimah’s room at Block D. They are always spending all her time in my room. They eat together. Go to class together, and sometimes they wear the same color of clothe if they want go to classes. All of them are study in the same course.

There are many actions and habits that I can see everyday from them. Everyday, my room is noisy with their actions but I still feel comfortable with them because they always make me full with smile and laughs. Without them I feel so lonely and bored. I’m really happy got Amy as my roommate.

" mY cLassmAtes "

In this semester, I had new classmates and I enjoy in knowing them. Some of them I do not know but there are certain friends that I am familiar too. Let’s check it out what type of my classmates are..

AL – In class, I call him “jambu”. Although, sometimes he is so annoying but actually he is a good and friendly person.

ASYRAF –I just see him this semester, so I don’t know how to describe him.

SOOD – He is funny person to me and he loves to make people laugh.

KHALID – He is my class rap. His English is good and he got a lot of confidence when doing presentation.

NASRI – Although he is my classmates since in part 1, I can’t describe him so well. What I know about him, he always with Sood everyday.

NIZAM – Same like Ashraf, I don’t know him too. But what can I say, he look so shy in class.

SALWA & RADIYAH – They are twin in this class but Salwa is more aggressive than his twin. She also has a good voice and very talented in singing, when Radhi is soft-spoken but both of them is very friendly.

FARAH IRMA – She likes to smile and she loves pink color. She likes to wearing clothes with their accessories at same colors.

ATIKAH – This is first time we in a same class, so I don’t know much about her.
AIZA ZALEHA - I also do not very close with her in class so I do not know how to tell about her.

IMA – She is my best friend since last semester. Although, we just know each other last semester but she is really kind, friendly and always giving us smile.

AZIERAH – She also my best friend since part 1, she also kind and helpful but she hard to smile to other person.

ERNIE – She was Ain’s best friend and they are always together. She’s not talk too much in class but she is nice.

SUE – She is nice, friendly and kind person.

LYNN – I call her ‘kakak’. I know her since Part 2 when she’s in same class with me for BEL 260 subject. She’s very happy-go-lucky person in class and funny girl. I’m very happy to know her.

NIK – In class, she close with Sal and always together. She is nice friend.

ZIERA – It’s me..

SAL – She is Nik’s best friend. She always sit in front of class and very hardworking person.

HUDA – I know her because we live in same colleague, Zamrud. We always share our problems and I happy to know her.

AINA - Apex, his nickname in class. She is very active and always asks to lecturer if she don’t understand about something. I really impressed to her.

SHIDA – She always with Huda, Sheila and Khalid. She is nice person.

FARA – She is happy-go-lucky person and always with Apex.

FARAHAIN – She is good friend and helpful.

ZATI – She is cute and always sit front of class with Apex and Fara.

KENT - She’s very fluent when speaking in English and she is nice person.

RAJA - I don’t know her well because I’m not close with her.

AIN - I know her since part 1, she is very happy-go-lucky person.

MUIN – He is bit quiet in class and not talkative person, so I don’t know how to describe him.

10 FACTS ABOUT ME..

« I LIKE TO EAT VERY MUCH.
Although I am a small girl, but I am really like to eat. Especially when I was in bad mood, I will eat as much I can because it was only way that can release my tension.

« DISLIKE VEGETABLES.
I don’t like to eat vegetables because its taste bitter. I only eat some vegetables like cucumber, ‘kangkung’, and cauliflower. However, I will eat if the dishes look yummy.

« HATE TO HEAR A SPEECH
Speech makes me feel so bored and sleepy.

« LOVE ART SO MUCH.
Actually, I want to take art and design course because I love art so much. I like art because it was amazing, and very creative way to show our expression about something but my sister don’t like me to take this course because she don’t think I will be success in this course and that’s why she want me to take business study here.

« I LOVE TO SLEEP
If I don’t have anything to do, I will spend my time on bed especially in the afternoon.

« LIKE TO READ A NOVEL.
I love reading but not an educational book. I only like to read a novel or magazines because it makes me cheer up. I will finish reading a novel within 1 or 2 hours but if I read an educational book, I will close up my eyes within 1 or 2 minutes.

« I LOVE MUSIC
I like to hear music because sometimes the lyrics are related with our real life. For me, music is just not only a songs but it can show what kind of people are. We can identify their characteristic only by know what kind of music they like to hear. For example, for person who likes to hear romantic songs it shows that a person has a soft-hearted and can easily get hurt feeling.

« LOOK ARROGANT.
If first time people look at me, they will think that I am arrogant person. Maybe sometimes it’s too hard to see me smile to a stranger but actually, I am not arrogant person. I just didn’t comfortable with people that I don’t know but if I know them I will be a good friend to them.

« CRAZY ABOUT GAMES.
When I have nothing to do, I will play games. Sometimes during weekend, I will spend all day to playing games and only take a break for a minute to pray, bathe and eat. Then, I will continue playing those games.
« I HATE FLOWER BEFORE.
Since I was small, I don’t like any kind of flower. I don’t know why, maybe because flower can’t be alive in a long time and it wilt after 2 or 3 three days. But, when I meet someone special in my life last year, I fall in love with flower especially rose. It was because every 4 or 5 days, he will bring red rose and chocolate for me at night. It quite romantic right?..

MY SUBJECTS FOR THIS SEMESTER..

For this semester, I have taking seven subjects include my co-curriculum subject. It was BEL 311 (English for Academic Purpose), MGT 269 (Business Communication), QMT 216 (Introduction to Statistics), ECO 211 (Macroeconomic), CTU 241 (Fundamental of Islamic Economics), BMD 101 (Mandarin) and HSK 114 (Hand Ball). I don’t think these subjects will be easy for me to struggle just like last semester. Therefore, I need to manage my time well to make me pass excellently for this semester.

Firstly, for BEL 311 was taught by Sir Mohd Izuan Ismail. When the first time I meet him, he looks so strict but after knowing him better, I think he is not. He just wants their student to be more advance in English just like him. My first impression on this subject is it will be an interesting more than my English for last semester. I really hope that my language will be improve for this semester because I think English is one of the important language that we need to dominate it.

Then, MGT 269 is an interesting subject. It is because it full with information about business world. We can learn many things like how to writing a report and proposal, how to attend a meeting and interview and many thing that will be use in the business world. My lecturer for this subject is Sir Ahmad Kamil Mohamed who is nice and sweet person. He never gets mad with his student if they are doing wrong but his advice them politely. It makes me more attracted to learn this subject.

The third is QMT 216 that teaches us about a calculation. I really love this subject because I love calculation. For me, calculation is easier and more challenging than reading subject is. In this subject, the lecturer is Miss Nor Zarina Johari. She is nice person but I do not understand why she must get in hurry to teach their student. She looks like she was chasing by a dog. Sorry for say that but I do not think it is a good way to teach the student. It makes us more confusing so we need to understand this subject by ourselves.

Next will be Eco 211. This is very tough and quite difficult subject to cover it for this semester. Majority of my seniors repeated this subject, so it makes me frightening to learn this subject. When I have entered the class, I am so glad to meet Pn Zailati. For me, she is a knowledgeable person. She knows everything about economic in Malaysia, about a foreign sector and what the problem happen in this country. I start to admire this lecturer because of her characteristic.

Another subject is CTU 241 that was taught by Ustaz Kamarulzaman Sulaiman. He is nice and understanding person. He always gives us some advice and support on how be successful in the world and hereafter. Although this subject is in Malay language but I don’t think this subject is an easy because it needs us to work hard on remembering all the facts. It was too bored to remembering all of that and reading something like that makes me so sleepy.

Sixth will be BMD 101, was taught by Mr. Lim Yoon Chong. He is funny, nice person and sometime I love to see him smile. I like the way he teach us, so gently and politely. For me, mandarin is a unique language but some words are quite difficult to pronounce it. However, I hope that I will get the good result in this subject.

Lastly will be HSK 114. I think this subject is simple and easy because I just have to attend the class every week and learn how to play hand ball correctly. It can help me to release my tension and make me enjoy to study here.

I hope I will score for all subject in this semester and will not repeat any of them. I will trying to study hard and get the best result in this semester and make my family proud of me.

ABOUT MYSELF

My full name is Siti Nadzirah Bte Mohd Salleh but just call me Ziera. My name was given by my eldest brother. I was born into the world on 16th November 1989 at Hospital Segamat. I am the sixth from seven siblings. I have 3 sister, 2 brother and youngest sister.

Although, I was born at Segamat but I grow up up in Johor Bahru with my parents. Same as many children, I was sent to Tabika Kemas Taman Cempaka when I was 6 years old. I only have 2 best friends there, named Dila and Siti.

Then, I continue my study in S.E.D.C for a year. Everyday, I go to school by bus with my sister and my brother because that school was far away from my house. When I was in Year 2, I move to SK Taman Cempaka that nearest to my house than before so I can only walk to school everyday.

On last 1998, I got news that my eldest brother was passed away because burning out in an accident when he on the way back to home. I feel so sad because I think he was the best brother that I never had and nobody can replace their position in my family. Although it happen 10 years ago, but I still crying when thinking of him.

After finished my primary, I continued my study at SM Sri Rahmat. I am enjoying study there because I have a lot of friend that make me smile everyday. When I was 13 years old, my family has decided to move to the village at Semerah, Batu Pahat.

Then, I continue my study at SMK Semerah for 2 years but when I was in Form 4, I have decided to continue my study at SMK Teknik Pontian in commerce studies. After finished my SPM while waiting for the result, I worked at supermarket for 2 months. Then, I worked as pam attendant for 4 months.

On December, I got a letter that I was selected to be here in UiTM Segamat. Now, I’m here as a student of Uitm Segamat.

Juwita Suwito – Breathe Again

Have you wondered how it feels when it’s all over
Wondered how it feels when you just have to start anew
Never knowing where you’re going
When you face a brand new day
It to be that way
Now I just close my eyes and see

I just want to breathe again
Learn to face the joy and pain
Discover how to laugh a little
Cry a little
Live a little more
I just wanna face the day
Forget about the woes of yesterday
Maybe if I hope a little
Try a little more
I’ll breathe again

Starting out again is never easy
Disappointments come and go
But life still moves onWith a bit of luck
It’s a brand new start
That might just walk my way
No need to walk away
Don’t want to live life’s replay

Thinks I will work out fine
If you can found the courage to look past the night
To see the break of dawn.


Today, I learned a new song called Breathe Again by Juwita Suwito. When I heard that songs, its reminds me about my past experience when I first came to UiTM Segamat. I’m taking Diploma in Business Study. Actually, I’m not interested in this course but my sister advises me to continue my studies here because I have a big interest in calculating. So, I just follow their advice because I know they will do the best for me. When I first came here, I have no idea how to start my new life here; all of here was new to me.

Although this is not my first time separate with my family, but I still feel sad when my mom leave me alone at this place. I really don’t know how to face my new day here. I’m so tired and don’t have time to rest. Need to wake up early morning and sleep midnight.

Fortunately, I have a very nice room-mate named Aza from Negeri Sembilan which has same behaviors like me so I can easily adaptable with new environment here. I always with her along the orientation week because I’m not from warm-hearted type but I’m also not arrogant girl. I just have a big ashamed with myself. So from that, I remind myself to starting a new life here and forget about the past time but I know it’s not an easy work for me to do.

On my first day in classes, I meet my new friend that I never knowing them before. I try to get along with them and I meet Fiza which be my best friend for a two semester. We were trying to know each other better than before. For me, she is a good listener and friendly but she also sensitive. We sharing a happiness and sadness together until I have been transfer to the other class. Although we are not in the same class anyway, but we always get in touch. At the new class, I have met another new best friend named Azie. When I was in semester 2 I meet another friend named Ima, she is a good friend, kindly and also good looking. I'm very happy to be here and I wants to thank a lot to my sister because force me to study here. Now, I know that sucess will never come if we don't try to catch up them and I will keep this memory as my sweetest thing that happen in my life forever.